Trying To Leave It Behind

WARNING: Today's story of my topic kinda bored, mainly about my own thinking and feelings :) Hehs. Continue to read if you need to satisfy your curiousity. =P

Today was a rainy day ever since noon has arrived, lucky I managed to get up my dad's car before it started to rain after school. Sometimes, my mood goes along with the weather. Haha =.= Rainy day makes me wanna sleep or feel like reminiscing about my own past. I'm not gonna write about what did I reminisce about, no one is interested about my own problems. Just gonna be another laughing stock for them? If I write it again.
Out of a sudden, my dad suggested go Genting for holidays, 2 Days 1 Night stay at the Genting Resort Hotel. I was like... "Huh?", why suddenly wanna go there again =.= Not that I don't wanna go, just that it will remind me of 'him' again... Sighs.

Just a little recap about my first time to Genting, which was on June 7th, 8th and 9th. Hmmm... It was kinda bored for me, because I went there with my dad, not with friends. Ended up I wasted Rm60 for 2 days at Genting's cybercafe o_o LOL! At first I think it's okay, since I don't wanna go theme park and play alone like an idiot. Later on, I felt that I shouldn't waste money on computers -.- Stay at room better. Honest speaking, I online just because I miss 'him'. Simple as that >.<

So, back to the main topic. Why I don't feel like going Genting again? Because It will remind me of 'him'. Hahaha... *laughs bitterly* Because~ I'm gonna be bored again, no one to chat with. I can't SMS him just like last time, I'm not his girlfriend anymore... So, yeah, maybe I'll just spend the rest of my time sleeping in bath tub or something LOL! Pssshht, because my dad says Genting Resort Hotel is much much much more luxury than First World Hotel, got big bath tub!!! XD
Conclusion is, I will go Genting with my dad. I know his health condition, not very good nowadays... So, what I was trying to leave behind is, the memories I had about 'him' and just get myself to Genting with my dad although it will affect my mood and feelings. Who else will go with him if it's not me? =/
There's one thing I wanna clarify, things or events that reminds me of 'him' doesn't make me feel irritated or depressed. Maybe the way I express here sounds like depressing o_o haha. But it's not. =)


Sometimes I do reminisce about our past, and it makes me smile. On the other hand, it makes me harder to let you go...