Complicated

Recovered from dengue fever, discharged from hospital. Argh... My mind is filled with doubts again. Does he still have feelings for me? I wish I have a definite answer for it though... He told me that he's going migrate to Russia with his real parents. It's good, a new start. Hmmm... honestly, I did sob a little but begging people ain't my style. If this is his decision, I should support him. Although it's going to be far away, I had no intention in begging him to stay or don't leave me, I'm hoping that he won't go deep in my heart... Why? Maybe it's because I'm confused again. I don't know whether are we still together or not... To me, yes, my heart is still with him. On his side... I really had no idea about it =/ I don't know how to ask, what to start the topic either. I don't have the patience to wait for an answer, yet, I don't have the nerve to ask him... Ahh, what a failure I am... =/

Confused soul